Okay, so, I'm transmasculine. This is why I hide my gender here and ask friends to stop using the feminine pronouns because it makes me uncomfortable. Classing myself female feels like a lie because I feel like I should have been male. But classing myself as a male also feels like a lie because I'm in the wrong body. So I generally prefer the unisex pronouns such as them, they, their.
I've been pretty open about this on facebook for the past year since coming out. People have been wonderfully supportive, for which I'm extremely grateful. And if you have an issue with this, you're more than welcome to unwatch me. I've always been this way, the only difference is that I'm actually writing it down for you to see right now.
I'm going to the doctor's next Wednesday to discuss my options. I don't know yet what's going to happen, that's why I'm going there to discuss my options.
To the people who "can't deal with it":
You don't deal with it, I do. I've been dealing with it for years and now I want it fixed.
To the people who "don't know how to explain it to their kids":
There's not a lot to explain; the outside doesn't match the inside and I want to fix that. It's that simple. People are often surprised by how much more kids know about these things than they're expected to.
I'm tired of hiding who I really am. I've done that for years, it made me depressed. I'm not gonna risk my own emotional health for the sake of people who can't accept me due to their own limitations.
And no, that doesn't mean I fancy girls. I'm not interested in either gender because I'm asexual.
And finally; to everyone of you who has supported and accepted me, even if all you did was nod when I first found the courage to tell you about the way I am, a huge, HUGE thank you.
And especially to my best friend for your support and encouragement.